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i dunnoe whats going o happen today but im kinda nervous its like my first time celebrating with my classmate >><<

So manything has happen that makes me so happy and giggle. even a sentence of happy bday zy made me giggle Hahaha.

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28november: Kikumaru eiji(pot)Ken(larcencial) Rykiel Happy bday XD wakakkaaka

YEs imma being lazy right now and typing here.

SO MANY THINGS UNDONE
IM FREAKING SCREWED AND IM SERIOUS.
argh i hate this like everything seem to crash on me this week.
Maybe i'm just tired. But its no excuse to not be able to control my temper right? and i dun seem to bring myself to trust people the more i think about the scarier it seem.
I'm really glad that this year i could smile so much instead of shunning away my smile which was thought as scary. I really have to thanks those people.
ARGH this is life !!! keep telling this to yourself rayu... argh


small notes:

Got twitter thanks to jess
quan dun worry ur daily grade will cover for it.


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no matter how much you have grown u can never get rid of the childish side you have since born.~

this must be my 1st time since i cried so much for a full day. Im so screwed up. got scolding since yesterday for many different reason by everyone in my family. It hurts me even more when i see my friends having fun outside. I hve to suffer the whole damn day just for staying at home and doing what others told me. This is fuck up man fuck i have to say. i dun understand why im sooooo stupid yet people expect so much out of me. Im not a genuis nor a person with telekeptic power and KNow what everyones one right? Everyone can be happy eithout doing anything yet i cant. things have to shoot back at me no matter what i do its like im jinx or something. Jianyang always say treasure them u'll regret whe they are gone. I want to believe to those words. But i just cant . i'm pratically not moving my heart to commit. my eyes is freaking swollen and talking to quan no longer works for it only tortures me more to see them enjoying the life out there

Sis wedding is next week i feel like i'm only ruining it . i need to stop depending on her. but i only create more trouble i feel so worthless . i dun even feel like i belong to this house nor deserve just great friends anymore. So much for trying to grow up and proving it.

i'm really exhausted not from school not from friends but from staying trap at home everyday of my life.
ALl i did was from school and back home. When i come home late from school u cursed my result would fail EVERY SINGLE TIME. HELLO I'm A POLY STUDENT I HAVE IG!
EVERY SAT EVERY SUNDAY I COMPANY U LIKE A DOG U KNOW WHAT A DOG IS? And all i wanted to go out with my friends U GAVE ME RUBBISH THINGS TO DO AT THE LAST MINUTES AND TOLD ME THAT U CAN GO OUT WITH UR FREWN BUT BE SURE SIAO ARH. BY THE TIME I MEET MY FREWNS I HAVE TO BE HOME. YOU TOLD ME TO STAY AT NIGHT TO SEE mY AUNT BUT THEN EVEN MY AFTER NOON U HAVE TO TAKE IT AWAY? I JUST WAN TO GO OUT ONCE WITH MY FRIEND! ARENT U SUPPOSE TO BE HAPPY THAT I HAVE SOMETHING CALL FRIENDS TO GO OUT WITH?Didn't u realise that i never go out with others before other than xiwen?
I DIDNT EVEN GO OUT WITH XIWEN LIAO LAH U HAPPY RIGHT!. I STUDY MY ASS OFF, I DO EVERY DO WITH MY BEST SO NOT TO LET U DOWN AND NOW? AbIT OF GOING OUT ALSO CANNOT JUST BECOX U WAN ME TO WAIT FOR SOME DAMN TECHNICIAN WHICH U PURPPOSELY ASK THEM TO COME AT 2 IN THE AFTERNOON WHERE THERES OTHER AVAILABLE TIME. ITS NOT AS IF I NEVER TOLD U RIGHT.
WHYYYYYY DO U NOT LISTEN TO WHAT I SAY AND LATER BLAME ME FOR NOT TELLING U.
I STAY AT HOME U CALL ME LAZY COX I PLAY COMP..THEN WHAT U WANT ME TO DO! ITS UR FAULT FOR LETTING ME OUT WHAT.
and i like staying at home. but this time is different its a friend who actually ask u to go out with a long time ago. and YET U HAVE TO RUIN THIS.
I really sick and tired, i have no where to break the heat in my brain.i only can let it into tears.
i hope i die at home from ROTTING.

I think im just too tired. Im really sorry quan ,jess, pq and dota boy . I really want to go out with u guys. I reallly do. Who doesnt want to go out with such a cool classmate?



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Human are the most dangerous creature in this world and i have to say this words are true. THey are the biggest liar of all . I have to say im one.
I hate not being able to change people mindset not being able to  h3lp them its irritating. But this is life.*weejie words ring by~*

Yesterday muse II turn out great everything went well .Zaini was awesome and the other performers too they put in alot of effort i had to say making such a wonderful energy which is further enhance X 10 by tony XDD awesome . Ifeel like my hearts going to burst chatter and blend with the dance. haha

i miss drawing, i miss xiwen , i miss redbox , i miss being alone at home and rotting haha.
This month is bday month so many people bday this month * giggles*

 10november, hongsiang(yss),ZHanyi(YSS) ,11november: weejie ,16novembert khairi(E37d), !7 november jason(E37d),Calvin(YSS), anymore i missed out? HAPPY BIRTHDAY BTW LOVA YA ALL *giggles*

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In lesson now i know i long time never update but i'm just making use of this time to type.

lts of event happening:
Didnt eat much lately no time -.-
zeph currently out of singapore
reflection show 09: my first time being a stage manager was fun. Muse II comnig up and many more FOH job.
Chingay: NOT EVEN 5% DONE AND HAVE TO COMPLETE IT ON 7 NOV
COMIC IG: Done left lining not very nice though T.T
UT: Yes its coming firs tut tmr and wth -.-
Kagrra new songs are HOLY GODDESS GOD!(but no worry a9 music is still love oh gawd hana and sleep walker is still stuck in my head)
in extreme panic mood.
Gakuensai: was quite fun XD and i cosplayed haha with two wigs freaking hell! hhahaha
DMA today really is horrible but for the faci i will pull on!!!T.T darn audio editing is &*&((*(@Y*$*(@&$)!*@(*($&^&*@#&@(*$.

Three pp on my target now hehe obviously red box, shorta boya and ermm some rendom person hahahaha( I wan to play NyaaaAAAAA)
I need motivation.
I had a nightmare last night but it was a good nightmare.seriously XD


Jia you

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copyed and paste from fb after Gakuen sai

COSPLAY EXPOSED *HORROR* Jia you comic ig keep up the good work!Great effort today and yesterday! jason, yuhsuan, siti,farah boo,quan,amanda, jess,samuel ,JCIG people(esp xiwen)many more TY FOR THE SUPPORT LOVE YA!

my fav pic if u can see: http://www.facebook.com/Fait3d?ref=profile#/photo.php?pid=824166&id=1322953539
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Love and hate for the start of the semester

Love: DMA and CREATIVE CONCEPT
HATE: ENTERPRENUR AND WEB+MEDIA COMM

Am tired i know u may say i so free have time to type here but i need to release my mind somehow.

List of things
Comic IG
Reflection 09
chingay
my sis wedding
internet

Creating WP for comic ig =.= feel like i have a lot of website like that stil designing it though since its not important im pushing it back.
arghh is so tired.


i'm such a sensitive bustard

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i should stop being lazy and type more here oftne cox there sooooo manythings to talk about lol. school started out fun a i know most people and they rox XD its fun lah. we played with DSLR today. XD. i like the shots.
I cut my hair and dyed it. I like hows it loks but some part of me felt like its not me anymore. I sometimes even felt the back of my hair is balding even though its one day since i dyed XD.

Ahh so many things going on cant wait for tmr.



probably monday blues.
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